Recalibrating Personal Meditation Habits and Addressing Small Attritions Through Forgiveness

Adam Ideson. Phoenix, Arizona A lot of focus on perspective, so maybe fine-tuning of that perspective and just working the process, I think. This is my second time through so this experience wasn't what I thought it was going to be and I'm still reconciling that in my brain and I'm going to work through that over the coming weeks and months but I definitely feel different this pod session or this 40 Years of Zen session that I did from the first one and I don't feel the impact the same as I did the first time and I thought this one was going to be more impactful, deeper. I thought I was going to come out the same but different I guess and I don't feel the same shifts and changes that I felt the first time around. That may come later. And it's most likely that is what will happen whether it's tomorrow or next week or next month or at some point, things reveal themselves a little bit differently. I almost didn't come in here because I knew I was going to get asked questions and I feel ill-prepared to answer. I don't have a lot of takeaways yet and I don't want to just make things up but I don't feel yet like I've got something new to walk out the door with that I didn't have the first time. It was good to come back it's been four years so it was good to come back and kind of do the refresher, work through these forgiveness pieces and work through that process of maybe recognizing that I had a frustration or a friction point with someone that I hadn't paid much attention to. That old analogy of the little things that kill and that idea that those small things, those small attritions do add up over the course of time. And to be more present with those and more aware of those and instead of maybe letting things just roll off the back, address them a little more immediately, even if they are small. As far as showing up for myself, I've let a few of my good habits slack over the last couple of years. In my meditation practice, letting a day go by without, two days go by without - and re-engaging on those with full commitment is major. I believe meditation is beneficial for anyone and everyone, I know it's good for me but I've dropped off on that, I've chosen to prioritize some professional targets over personal targets, this last year for sure. So recalibrating, resetting on that and giving myself the time that I deserve is definitely critical.